HELLO ADDICTION

Hey addiction,
It’s high time we have a talk,
I don’t know how fast our relationship became,
Or even why it happened,
Jumping from higher heights to deeper depths,
But I can feel myself fall,
And just before I lose it all,
Let’s talk.

I know I chose you,
Over those pills and rope,
Because I felt you promised me hope,
We both understand,
You were never my first choice,
But still, I chose you,
You hid me from all those emotional wounds,
Kept me blinded to reality,
I loved the way you kept my pain at bay.

You kept me distracted,
Enough of putting the delusion around,
Profound because I was a wreckage,
Taught me to keep my eyes off the bleeding,
So I did.

I grew so free to lock myself,
In your familiar chains,
You always were a faithful friend,
There for me when I needed you,
Always,
even when I didn’t,
Never understood who I really I was,
Because I was so convinced
I was somebody else altogether,
So thank you,
Because you did take my pain away,
But screw you for taking my joy with it too.