Oh, the screams, so very highly pitched
The air so thickly tense, I almost feel suffocated
I cannot wait, anxiety creeps silently but deeply within me
The strong smell of hospital supplies only adding to the weight of my lungs, clogging right into my mind
I’m panicked, pacing rashly just outside the ward
“Push…”, “cmon…just one last time!”,
I was cracking, my patience long lost, my sanity barely threaded.
Suddenly, as if by summon, utter silence fills the air
My heart plunging rapidly into my stomach
Dread washes all over me, covered just with a tinge of hope
A minute too long, and a sharp cry follows
Its wails piercing into the world as if to proclaim the arrival of a great great miracle
As it should it be, I convince myself to believe so
It was time the sleepless truth was revealed.
As I walk in, fear gropes tightly around me
The sight before my eyes halting me to a dead stop
I feel drained, almost confused and amazed all at once
I could’ve sworn I never saw such beauty before
The way she held her, as if to say she’d never let go
The joy in her eyes, so pure I couldn’t help the tears
their smiles, both acknowledging their comfort and relief after finally finding a home in one another
She held her in an embrace so natural and loving I almost felt abandoned by my own.
I step in closer, tears flooding my eyes
she smiles at me, then back at her
It felt as if they were cultivating joy in my heart
As she hands me the baby, I get scared again
Scared that I may drop her, I felt so clumsy
Scared that I may not protect her, I felt so weak
Scared that I may not provide, I feel so not enough.
“Garry?” My wife calls to me, giving me a smile
One of hope and certainty, one so full of love.
Oh, she was one with queens!
So as she holds my hand, I promise to hold her’s too
Through those times when she’d ever need
Swore to love her as much as I knew how to, after all
she was the bearer of my greatest joy today and forever.
And as I look upon my daughter, warmth fills within me
Almost as if she lit a candle in there
And just right then, I felt her roots implant right into my heart
A fruit tree blossoming whole
And from it, I bore love and affection
One of truth and purity, one endless and unconditional.
At that moment, I felt so complete, so whole
It was so tangible, yet quite surreal
Like life was at one of its tricks again.
So I’ll hold you my love, ever so close to my heart
always protect you, keep you from harm
I’d give all whenever, just for you my darling.
And I promise to love, so very fully you’d never lone
So very strongly till I possibly couldn’t.
My dear loves
to build a home, one with care
always, to guide and protect
to hold together, ever so closely
And forever to endlessly love
I shall gladly lay it all for you.
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