DARK NIGHTS

Late night conversations have a way of bringing out the unseen version of you, truths that you constantly hide and demons that you fight every single day. It’s scary, to think that there are different versions of you, one for every single person you meet. Some have met the bubbly you, others the intelligent you and the unfortunate ones have met the dark you. I really don’t know whether they are unfortunate or lucky to have seen that side of you, few have I suppose. All these really doesn’t matter, what does matter is whether you have the courage to look at yourself in the mirror, to face the man looking back at you, to be honest with yourself, that’s what counts. And you could try and drown all these thoughts, with loud ear banging music, with tequila which apparently is the answer to everything?, but our past always has a way of pinning us down, it follows us to the depths of the universe, no matter how fast you run, your past always finds you, you can’t hide.

So here’s my two cents on life and abortion, use them wisely. At the end of the day, what truly matters is whether it settles well with you, whether your soul is at peace for having done it or will the cry of that innocent baby haunt you always. And I truly hope that you gain the courage to face whatever consequences come with taking a life, I hope that you don’t live a life weighed down by the actions of your past, that’s no way to live and I hope that if it ever gets to the point where all these is too much, I hope you forgive yourself. Life is sacred and it’s not in my place, or anyone’s place for that matter, to decide what you do but at the end of the day, I hope you make a decision that you can live with.

See, it’s not easy walking into a restaurant and seeing a little girl throwing tantrums because she wants ice cream and you think, ‘My girl would have been six by now’ and this will break you a little because that wasn’t just a mass of cells, it was a child and you would have been there to celebrate their graduation, their birthdays and Christmas, you would have been their best friend.

On the flip side, I believe that a child should be raised in the right mental space so if you ever feel you are not ready to do this, then choose what’s best for you. At the end of the day you still matter, your health, your thoughts, they all matter so choose your peace of mind. I don’t know if it’s allowed by law but if you ever decide to do it, then do it the right way, seek proper medical care, don’t put your life at risk. My thoughts though✌, feel free to share yours.