AS I AM

By Gladys Gachanja

I sometimes sit and stare out into space

My heart an empty hallow

Ahall filled with loneliness and sadness as its only tenant

I try to fill this emptiness with friends, music and a good bottle of wine

But its like a sieve and everything just goes through

Yet again, i`m left looking for some warmth

I feel glad everytime is see the sun, hoping i can absorb just some of its warmth

Sometimes all i need is a hand to hold me through the dark

Or eyes to see for me when mine are too clouded with tears

I hope i get to you in time

Before my heart bleeds out or my veins freeze to death

And am unable to love you then

I stir my heart every time like lighting a fire in winter

It burns slow , threatening to ebb out its flames

But am hoping that this spring, the winds will blow and spread it

And my heart will blossom with your love

My mind will spread like a passion fruit on  a fence

Unafraid of where it lays its head

I pray i will be courageous enough to show you all that I am