Its gone

Its in warmth its in the fire, its in the guilt its in the slander where the love goes where the trust blows. Alone i stand so trust is gone, i forgive i forget you repeat you reset. Whats wrong with you? Don’t you see the pain or is my pain your gain? you think i dream in vain?most of it is real the pain is here just open your eyes. This love is fake his words so sleek, its all a dream i think i need to awaken dad speaks i listen they say he a died 5 year ago, Im i even awake? Is this physical is this a reality. Where am i headed to? Just coz i loved and got nil back? Isin’t love made to be beautiful? to me its a myth a ghost a bunch of claws making noise, Is it still 2021? my shattered heart make me feel lost, like my existence is a joke? like i was made for people to ridicule?
A pianist you are the love of my life, at the window i glance with the wind you are gone. Ohh no did i hit a wall? A loveless Hall? I go back to my routine, A loveless geek. The stabbed broken one, give me love i want a smile a genuine fill.
What is this place ? Why are you all over me? you mean i was not meant to loved. Why did you put in my hands? This i just barbaric this man of my heart is he even real? my air he breaths in. Am i in hell? am suffocating my left nose ring is itching, am a myth in his book he says. From the past is my existence. Let me put this book down, forget the love chapter.
What is love? to me will it ever be reveled? Barry did you even like me? was i just a pass time as you waited for your true love to arrive? Set me free let me find true love from this prison this romance dungeon. The bats are overwhelming breathing all my air will i make it out alive?
I only fell for the boy next door all this i was blind to, Stacy let go of my man let my broken heart heal. Don’t be mean you are my best friend i trusted you. We had something good going you told me so yourself. Now our friendship i gone so is my hearts warmth, did i ever wrong you bestie? Liam is still with you right? why do you want to kill me?Release my Barry from your charm please.