Today I saw her walk through the aisle
Behind the white veil her smile was unobscured
Radiant, brighter than an exploding star
She’d have been walking to me, I thought
With every step, my heart felt like it was being ripped out
To hold back tears from streaming was the hardest
Never had I fought hard to do anything
I guess there is always a start
Holding her dad’s arm, she glided towards the groom
The wedding gown she wore made her look like she was floating over the red rose petals sprawled before her
The crowd whistled and clapped, beaming
But I didn’t, I couldn’t get myself to, even in pretense
I was hurt that she was so happy
A prick of resentment overwhelmed me
I know that makes me a darn awful person
I’m only selfish, saying the least
I couldn’t have her as my own
Not that she didn’t want me
But I thought I didn’t
For a very longtime I kept pushing her away
Toying with her emotions on every instance
It was fun as it lasted
Except now I stand in the midst of a rowdy gathering
I’m an awful person, saying the least
When I saw her kiss him passionately
It dawned on me I’d just lost the love of my life without knowing it
I stumbled back and fell into the my seat
The cheers around me were all muffled by my sullen heart
I sat quietly as regrets spouted forth, the ache was more than I could bear
I buried my head in my palms and cried a little
I didn’t care I was pulling attention to myself
But when more and more eyes turned
I knew it was time I took my leave
I leaped on my feet and made my way through the gathering, briskly
Half way, I turned to steal one last glance
I felt her eyes on me
I Couldn’t make out whether it was of pity or detest
With the back of my hand I wiped away the little tears
And then she was gone….
Muzamir
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