THE RENEGE

Rodgers omTHE RENEGE

Sitting lonely in the large room
It resembles a hall at the moment
The echo of the flying bats and insects
The shadow of you playing dimly in my sight
A blurred multiples of you dances
I see those days when you were you
Those days when you were still a galah
Those days before you became clever as you claim
The days when I was the only song
A swan song trending in your ear
I was your letter A to Z
Before you injected yourself the clever dose
You were my own world
Phone calls every hour
Chats till late in the night

Maybe I was once a blind
No, I was all my senses but lacked one
Yes I lacked the magic eye
To see what lies beneath your angel face and well knit hair
Time tested for your patience
The days when you saw the dreams in me shining
Then you gave me hurried promotions
From boyfriend to lover then fiance
I was fully obsessed with you
When we could fly high into the thick clouds
The birds were once jealous of our romance
Envying as we fly to the safe heaven
But then you became a clever passenger in a faulty plane
You wore your life jacket and jumped through the window
To save your life leaving me crash to unknown
The dreams you saw in me faded into nothing
But then it was your impatience
Which corrupted your mind
At the time when we were close to the heaven’s gate
Your true image became bold
A nightmare dressed like a daydream is all you are.
Here you are again on your knees
Thinking I would change my mind
At the time when obduracy has filled my skull
Poignant memories haunts me
You thought I was numb to the starve of pain

Here I am x-raying my chest
Cobwebs has colonised my heart
Heaps of soft ground flesh settles at the bottom
Dry blood stain from your injury
Are all I see in my heart’s cage
You became a renegade
Joined another party at the time
When I needed you most
All the promises you reneged
You disappeared never to call back
And here you are thinking I would trust
The tears which washes you
Maybe they are just a make up
This may not be you again
My finger is and will remain naked
Never to accept any duping ring
The scar you left me
Pushed me to cast the ring into the sea
And I am ready to pluck out my heart
And burry it under the sea
Then come back and point at you in the eye
Telling you to “stop loving me”

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