Last Seen

The heaviness was back
Like a shadow hovering
I was lonely, longing for something
I was also online
Scrolling through profiles

It wasn’t always like this
I had someone, once upon a time
I cared about them more than I should have
The problem is that I am a dreamer
Eager and impulsive

We talked about anything and everything
At the time it was bliss
Here was someone who saw me,
Who was curious about me

In retrospect, I ignored so much
Choosing to bask in the glow of being seen
As with everything with no depth
The seams of what we had began to give

Replies took longer
They became shorter,
More terse
Soon it was silence,
Loud and glaring
Your last seen was always minutes
Hours ago, what did I do?
The message was clear enough
You were done

There was hurt, confusion
And sobriety
And so the cycle began
A modern war of who cares less
It’s endless
It’s meaningless
In the end I am still alone
Back to where I was
I am tired of this game
This game of silence