Different Man

I must have stepped on the wrong routine,
Or maybe I skipped one growing up meeting,
I seem to be off track,
Maybe the universe just sidetracked me.

Men my age are earning, huge, huge wage,
But I’m stuck to a small wage,
My life in an office that feels like a stage,
Everyone is just watching my baby steps.

Adult man, making baby steps,
I still live in a tiny apartment,
Not like my friends, huge apartments,
Different lifestyles.

Where did I go wrong?
My destiny or just bad luck,
Society routine, school, work, marriage.
They call it life.

I am not sure life is what I’d call mine,
School, work, broken multiple relationships,
Nothing seems to work out,
Not the money, not the luxury, not the love.

Everyday feels like it’s slipping away,
No room for improvement,
Just there,
Living.
If I tell my peers my worries,
I’ll make it to the top list of jokers,
All I’ll get to hear is their laugh,
Their jokes about my life.

Unsuccessful, old grown man,
That’s what I am,
Who I am,
That is my life.

I can’t speak my worries out,
I don’t need to a joke,
To be a figure of shame I choose silence,
My silence.