Stained dignity

Stained Dignity,
Hello love is beautiful how you broke me.
You made me a prisoner of your love.
You used me to fulfill your filthy desires.

You can say I was naive .
But you made sure my dignity was stained.
You exploited me without mercy .
Your love was poisonous yet sweet .

Maybe I was too much religious ,
I saw you as my answered prayer.
You would calm my demons in a miraculous way.
Yet you made sure i remain captive of your love.

You won,be proud of yourself.
You were too possessive of me .
I thought you meant it.
If only I knew you were scared I would be wise and leave you.

Dear diary, this lover of mine exploited me .
He made sure I have no place to hide my face.
Did you have to speak about my weaknesses to the world like that?

You didn’t only betray me ,you buried me.
Congratulations to you ,now the world know much about me.
This is beyond crucifying me …
I bet you enjoyed it.
I loved you more than anything.

You saw best was to exploit me, stain my dignity.
Drag me in the mud ,just because you desired me.
You made sure I had no religion to support me.
Everyone ran away from me like I had leprosy.

You were happy weren’t you?
Is a pity my heart loved you.
You were right I was no match to your type.
Dear diary ,I wish he never stole what I believed in .

He left me naked.
Naked spiritually, mentally and lowered my self esteem.
I couldn’t stand the shame,the questions ,the judgment all was too much.
If only the sun wasn’t envious of the moon, maybe the rain wouldn’t cry so hard today.

Is fine you won but today i will say this to you,
For the love that broke me ,i will still heal right?