

A girl. A child. A daughter. A human, perhaps, But all you saw was a toughest man in there, When all I wanted to be
Dear loneliest undemanding sibling, The one no one ever worries about, The one who takes care of everything, The one everyone sees as a savior,
You look at me and hate who I am, As if you didn’t make me into this shell, Like you weren’t the one who hurt
I wanted to live, at least once, To feel what it was like, to be alive. I wanted to dream, and let go, Without having
Someday, I had dared to love, Dared to believe in the reality of it all, The possibility that there was always more, More to the
A lover in the night and savior by day, I should have been different, for him, I should have tried to embrace him more, Instead
It was different, with her, the girl in a red scarf, The girl whose smile tore through my heart, Whose life was never hers, to
I thought a lot of things were impossible, That there was a system to be followed, A mastery that needed to be kept always, And
Kitten, I’m coming for you, Consider this a heads-up, my precious, Even though my mind is focused on the wall, The one you taught me
I haven’t written letters for years, petal, And truly, this may not be what you like, Even as I struggle to write down these words,