I won’t say I don’t deserve you dear,
Because it gets clearer by day that I don’t.
I won’t say that you are too good for me,
The whole world is a witness to that sad fact.
I won’t confess to almost stalking you sweetheart,
Or to going to sleep only after your lights are off.
Maybe what is do is stalking but I’m just a lover,
A lover who can’t get no sleep till you do.
I won’t say I’ve always wished you were mine,
That would be too blunt and you might scare,
Loving you from a distance is better than being your fear.
I won’t admit to buying you several gifts,
And then suddenly freak out when I reach your door,
Having to go back for you might send me away.
Admitting to fearing your reaction is a blow,
But sweetheart no ego is worth losing you.
I won’t admit to telling everyone and anyone,
Who wills to listen, just how much I value you,
Despite the teases and mockery I’m met with.
I would choose that mockery over silence all the time,
That’s just how much I need you for me, my love.
I won’t say I’m intoxicated by your scent, I understand.
Your scent without the perfume, heavenly lilies.
So I grew white lilies and roses, for when I miss you.
But I have to say I like the way it feels to hope,
To hope that someday you will be mine.
That someday in the near future it will be me.
That I will get to listen to you till you fall asleep,
Listen to your rants about your day and everything,
Keep you warm and safe in the night and day,
Wake up next to you and get my fingers in your locks,
Not as your “friend”, but as your one true beloved.
You are the warmth my cold cruel life needs,
The soul stone of my existence, I desire you.
In the most unspeakable ways, I want you for me.
Without you, every day is just empty twenty four hours,
And every month and year just counts in the calendar.
But with you, my days will be more than that,
They will be defined by your happiness and just you.
I had no destination till I met you. Please, be mine?
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