LIVING POSITIVE

For once in her life she wanted to hear negative
The word itself.Negative.
Instead she heard positive
Her whole world came tumbling down when she found out she was positive for HIV/AIDS
She knew she was suddenly going to become a walking HIV/AIDS campaign
She couldn’t sleep,she was furious,sad,nauseated,confused,slightly dizzy,dizzy,bored but most of all,she was losing sanity

She couldn’t let it go to her,not yet
All she could think about were the stories he told her
The passionate and the affectionate nights they would have together
She fiddled with her fingers,she smiled and frowned
She was searching for the answers that could complete the puzzle of her life
That night,she was drowning in love
The kisses of passion
In each other’s arms they felt it
A feeling that have never been felt,never known,never shown
Never till now
The promises she made to him each day
She would stand by his side through thick and all
Deep breaths.The deep breaths
Eye to eye
The scared gazes
She would always ask for more!!

She didn’t mean to bring up the memories of him
That was the last time they were together
“Why didn’t he tell me?
Why did be tell me that he was setting me up?”
Thoughts were racing through her mind
Now she had to deal with death
Death at her house
Death who take souls away
Death who knows the devil
She was now a fallen Angel
He destroyed her life with all the life
He never loved her

“I’m.Going.to.Kill.Him” she hissed
She was red
“Was he after all this time trying to make a fool of me?
Did he not give me life back then that had to come with such kind of a consequence?”
Her life was all a scam now
He had lied to her all that time so she wouldn’t think different of him
Too many questions and not enough answers
She only thought of two positive letter words and two negative letter words
Love,Hope,Hate,Dead
She didn’t want to die yet
There are lots of things she already had and there’s a lot she doesn’t
She has to survive and she has no clue if she is really going to make it
She just want to experience love once again
But this time,she had to have it differently
Protected sex,get medication in time and regular check ups

She had to fight for survival
She couldn’t go anywhere,she had to control everything
She had to stop crying and stop all the thoughts of rains of blood
It really happened!
Bad as always,she decides to live a pretty normal life