SUICIDE NOTE

SUICIDE NOTE
What is this that I feel?
A feeling in my head, a feeling from within my soul
Why does my body hurt so much?
What is this sudden feeling of worthlessness?
Why is there so much noise in my head?
The silence, is now becoming deafening
Why do I feel so frail and pale?
So impulsive, my heart, beats so strangely

I believe it has finally caught up with me
The one dreaded monster
The shadows that ride my worst nightmares
My race seems to have come to an end, a sudden halt
From a far I see the finish line
A conspicuous red line, not even the blind would miss it
And I tell myself,
One last step, one last jump
And it would all be over, finally
The serenity, the peaceful aura, what more could one ask for
It’s a leap I must take, one last leap

And should one ask where I am
I wish they know, that I outran my race
That I crossed the finish line,
I finally found peace
Let them know, that I tried to speak
But no one listened
Tell them, that I bled my heart out for them
No one listened, to the deafening cries of my silence
I ask of you to let them know
That I expressed my thoughts for them
Down on paper
But a poet they called me,
And congratulated me for my art
A good piece of work

Tell them that if they need see me
I would be resting under the Mugumo tree
If they need speak to me, I will be listening to their hearts
And when they finally get to my resting bed
I pray that they give me a good send off
Let the poet depart in peace
Let no one cry in my departure, for I am all happy
Speak not when I descend to the ground
Not of your love for me, nor of mine for you
For when I needed the pep talk
I was all but a poet
A poet who deserved an Oscar’s

One last step, on last move
It will all be over soon
A promise I made to my wounded soul
A promise I now have to fulfill
I hope I do better on the other side
And be sure I’ll pass your greetings to those who came before
Till me meet again my good friends
Fare thee well

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