LETTERS TO MY LOST LOVER

By Bobo Cyndy

Letters to my lost lover

I love you ,I love you so much, my heart beats for you, my mind thinks of you, my senses wait for your touch ,each single day is a success to me as long as I’m with you with you. I feel like a billionaire, I feel like I no longer need to struggle for I have found the joy of my life, the feelings I have for you is more than love it’s something else the feeling of having you everywhere ,the feeling that words can’t express the feeling, that drives me crazy when I see you around other people who are not me, the feeling that makes me get jealous of your mother and sisters for being too close to you, the feeling more than love it’s more than anything in this world.

** I guess nothing is permanent after all**

Dear,
Lost lover

At first I couldn’t believe that it was real, and that I actually was not dreaming for life was too sweet ,you made it become everything I desired ,you became my strength ,my drive, My Hope ,and for once in my life I realized the Power of Love. it was indeed Powerful ,sadly it was sweet and short then Darkness came

I still don’t get why you had to cut it short, I still don’t get why you had to cut off the springs that brought life to me.
I still don’t get why you had to break my heart to pieces, when all I ever wanted was to be loved by you
Cuz I loved you, indeed I loved you, maybe I still do cuz the memories always brings back you, I loved you so much that all I could ever see was nothing but your good side, and not imperfections. I so loved you that I was willing to take all risks for you, I might even refer you to my little god

I still don’t get why it had to end like this.

Yours truly
Broken lover.

** life is a very strange thing for it happens that those our heart desire have no interest but those you don’t desire give you all their time**

Sitting in the cold with endless questions, one may think me crazy but it’s you making me feel like this .this is a mistake that I wish I never made ,but it’s too late now and all I’m left with is regrets ,yes regrets with many *I wish I didn’t, I wish ,I wish, I wish!!!!* if only wishes were horses then perhaps beggars would ride. cuz my most wish now is that I could take time back to that day. yes that day I met you and remove it from history or rather prevent my Encounter with you ,then maybe you would have remained a stranger to me and this kind of pain ,,,,it would not be here and I will be at peace ,,yes you still hurt me a lot or if only I could take days so quick and see the end of this year,, because although I don’t know when this pain will go away ….. I’m sure of one thing, and that is I will not feel the same pain come the end end-of-the-year, but they say everything has its lesson and I learnt mine, by experience by first going through it and then I get lessons after.””

\My heart still belongs to you\

* I tried,
I tried believe me,
I tried to believe it’s all over ,
I tried to believe, that I’m no longer the one you love
I tried to believe that us was no longer
I tried ,I tried
sleepless nights, watery eyes ,
scars, pain, heart broken
but I couldn’t ,I just couldn’t
I couldn’t just forget you
I couldn’t get you out of my heart
and now I give up
I’m gonna fight for you
I’m gonna get you back
even if it means killing!!!!¿¿¿*

( what if I said I love you will you push me away ,will you choose to break my heart and deny my request)

Dear lost lover;

You broke my heart in ways I can never tell .you said you love me ,and I believed that you love me and nobody else. you fooled me by saying there’s no other woman in your life but me, you spoke of how much you had been heartbroken all your life by other girls, and how you had seen that I was the one to bring change to your life, and I ,,,,,,,I believed and believed it all ,,,,that you are saying nothing but the truth. I refused to listen to my conscious; just to listen to you; cause you are the one my heart wanted ,or rather my heart believed you are the one I loved ::cuz you made me feel so happy, like a girl who has fallen in love for the first time. you brought melodies back to my life, and it was all joy until I felt like you are not the right man, because you never knew my value not how a special being I was ,when I realized I was just an object to you I couldn’t believe at first ,,,,that I had been caught in a trap by you I always thought myself clever that no one would ever break my heart ::seeing you doesn’t hurt at all no it doesn’t but seeing her,,, it breaks my heart altogether,,, it hurts,, it hurts,,, but I am so used to pain anyway, that no tears can come to my eyes .no matter how much it hurts it’s just locked in no tears but pain

I know I’m the only one hurting. Because I was the one who was foolish to listen to your words. and believe them,,,, even if I try assuming the pain ,,it won’t go away no matter what ;you really hurt me and I think I deserved it ,,because I got so many warnings against you but I couldn’t just listen; instead I insisted: but is that not what love is ???isn’t it to love someone truly you can’t believe anything against that person ,,until you see it by your own eyes ??and still that won’t be enough ,,you still want to hear from the person that it’s not true that it’s just a misunderstanding ,because the love you have is so strong that you don’t want to lose it ,,,and that’s where people go wrong cuz you are so in love that you become extremely blind and stupid

*OBSESSED WITH YOU*

* no I won’t let you go,, you shall go with me and if I can’t be happy with you, then no one else will have you I can never forget what you said to me back at the rooftop when it was just me and you as I laid on your right shoulder as you looked up counting the stars saying how we are lucky to have each other remember when you said the words* mine forever * maybe you didn’t really think of it’s impact in my head maybe you didn’t know how powerful those words were to me ,,,they have always run in my mind ,,,they are like a fuel that lights up my heart in ways I can never express,,, and now you say you found someone better and expect me to be fine with that.!!!!!!!!!!

MAYBE IT WAS TIME TO LET GO

And so I told myself of how I’m never going to trust or love again ,,,,,but little did I know that it ain’t easy for a man to control his heart ,,all a man can do is control his brain and he came again my lost lover ,and my heart pumps love again but there was no way my mind would allow me, it was a love that can never beŸ¤ðŸ¤.

Falling in love again*🤯🤪

I did not know whether he was speaking the truth ,,,or not .I could not read his heart to know if his words are true,, all I know is that his eyes are so convincing and the words so sweet,,, he lips so kissable and I could only face him a few times because I didn’t want to be convinced maybe he is just trying to convince me for his own benefits,,,, maybe his intentions were good,,,, maybe bad maybe I’m just not ready to be burned by the same flame twice.

* I wanna hear the words ” I love you” but I can’t say them back the same way you do##

love me like the way you love what you love the most,,,, I love you and don’t at the same time ,,,what am I to do???? yeah I know your value and importance as well,, this confusion makes me feel like I need a break: and I just can’t really be in relation with anyone who comes with the word I love you,,,, I want to hear the words I love you but I can’t say them back the same way as you do,, I can’t even answer them ,,,,I don’t know why I have to convince my heart ,,,,mind that you are the one ,maybe it’s because I feel like if I lose you I may never get another one like you: but does that mean I accept you again,,,, out of fear that I will lose a good man,,, but what if my heart never gets to love you like I did once,,,,, the pure love I had for you gone??????!

*Every story has a happy ending*😍

life is beautiful journey how can one end a tragic story with a happy ending ,,,,,,when you just begin thinking Love Is Easy it’s when it gets difficult ,,,it’s surprising how we love and stop loving at the same time ;once she fell in love and it only lasted for a shorter time and before she realized,, that the love was there had already disappeared but again,, little did she know,, that some of the things we do builds or destroy us,,, but once one is your soulmate they shall remain so and the love came and went ,,,,,came and went and finally it came and stayed till the end at least it had a happy ending.

(Words won’t make me believe you, because I know what a big liar you are; only actions,,, but how can I even believe what I see anymore ,,,cuz it’s still deceiving) # no hope for you#