Let’s Talk

Let’s talk
I want us to talk
Talk about how everything hurts
I had dreams bout us
The perfect image of who we would have been
I gave my entire self to you
I know you know it all
I was ever broken when it came to you.

I even thought it was a spell,
The charm of something
Why do l feel like I’ve lost myself
In pursuit of…
There’s no name for it.

Many are the times,
I wanted you to let me in so badly
It’s like you never
Valued my feelings
Like you never trusted me
Like I wasn’t mature
Like I was never serious.

Now it’s mysterious
This shit hurts you know
Why didn’t you tell me?
That you never valued my opinion
Just to truncate my heart to hurt
Like a dead rose
I’m the one to face the wrath
And fall for distinction.

Everyday I curse myself
For doing things blindly
I ask myself why!??
Was it worth it ??
Has it ever been worth it!??
Will it ever be worth it!??

What hurts even more is that you’ve gone
Disappeared like dew in the morning
Like darkness you can’t be seen during the day
Forever gone
Maybe I was yours
But you were never mine
You have never been
And you will never be.

It was so saddening and traumatizing
To love yet never be loved
Above all,
Know that you took everything I had
You took life away from me
And fed me with nothing but silence
No more.