Hi Vs Bye

In two letters,
The conversations that would spell so many words begun.
It would have been comforting to know in advance,
That no matter how many words the conversations held,
There was nothing that would come of it.

I wanted someone I would confide in and hold on to,
My personal person,
But what I got,
Was someone who taught me,
The different ways I could use,
To break myself even more.

So I got addicted to holding on,
Because no one would understand,
What it took to stay.
Only I could understand,
As that is what love had spelled out for me.