INKY LINK

I’m not going to charm you with my lines,
Because you know my styles and sentences,
Somehow it feels like you know what I’ll say,
If it means you are a conquest, but you’re not.
So I’ll just tell you what I think and know,
What’s been roughing and messing my mind,
I’m in love, it seems crazy, but I won’t lie,
I know you will see through my lies anyways.

This feels beautifully better than the first time,
Than the moment we first met, which was crazy,
Better than the first touch and all our associations.
It feels perfect, just like your lips felt on mine,
That first time, that very time, that only time,
The kiss that still has me drowning in you,
Breathlessly, hopelessly and totally lost in you,
Despite all the years and time that has gone by.

That moment, it felt unreal, totally dreamy,
So just like my dreams, I keep it very safe,
I hold on to it, like the last drop of water,
As if it was the last drop of breathable air,
I keep it where my beautiful moments are,
Even though sometimes I feel like letting go,
I just realized, after all those innumerable times,
That it was the first real contact we ever made.

The only pure contact of those that we have had,
One that did not involve insults or any bad habits,
The only contact that has me desiring more,
Not because of the lust, but because it is you,
You who is always there for me, for them, for us,
Who always knows when who did what and why,
Who has everyone around you in all cutesy smiles,
I’m in love with you, with everything about you.

Our links have been severed and sustained by ink,
Kept good because of the spills we make daily,
The hourly and maybe monthly spills, our usual.
Inks that leave beautiful mastery and artistic traces,
The traces that I keep looking at, over and again,
That have my attention whether or not you are around,
Inks that have my hopes high and dwindled,
Inks that have our emotions turmoiling at the same time,

But even then I keep holding on to us,
I want more of you, I need more of you,
I crave all of you and I miss you. Crazy right?
Well now I know writing this is a crazy idea,
Which is awfully good, because I just lied. Erased.