I miss you

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I miss you, daily
With me I have a picture of you, always
In all my thoughts, my dreams too
Most which are nightmares, but nightmares tinged with love full of unanimous perfection
How I’d call you by your vernacular name, Jepkoech
I miss your grimaced look, so irritated I should have called you bae
I miss those long nocturnal calls, those that got our phones hot
Don’t you miss them, those sweet whispers of love
Those voice notes, the lengthy and comforting ones
Song dedications, I miss my harp
I feel so incomplete, no one to share my thoughts with
I miss your company, the lengthy deep conversations I yearn for
How you’d coax me to tell the truth even in lies
So inappropriate it feels like a breakup, a painful one
Yet a heart-sore, monstrosity from a heart break
Did we have to freeze it at such a warm beautiful time of the year
Did we?
I admit being erroneous and hurting you, a sincere regret
I am sorry, accept my plea of contrition
It seems so broken, I feel it too
But it matters not how and how much
All that matters is how much we are willing to sacrifice and mend it a new
For in the definition of broken, there’s a silent meaning of fixing
Feel sad today, while in wait embrace the happiness that comes in our tomorrow
Try not to fight yourself, fight not your feelings
Please let us be, I miss you
I am freezing in agony, perplexed in quandary
Not knowing if you love me or am I just not enough
Hope you’ll be open with me
Though week, there still is a bond between us
So allow me spark it up, allow me ignite it a new
I promise not to be purely perfect, but will this time try be the man you’d want of me 

I Miss you ?