I love you, but your response to my confession is scary.
I love you, but what happens if it’s just a feeling,
An infatuation mistaken for love?
I love you, but the journey of love,
With its unpredictability, uncertainty,
Paralyzes my heart in silence.
What happens if years later I feel like I want out?
What if I have to lose you to someone else, to drugs,
To work, to alcohol, to life’s uncertainties?
I love you, but my mind is crowded with webs of past pain
Pain I’ve been unable to get past through
Pain that I can’t let sip onto you.
What if I wake up one day and regret chosing to love you
What if I’ll want space to breathe?
But can’t take being away from you at the same time?
What if I can’t stand the test of time,
To love and hold, in sickness and in poverty,
Till death does us part?
Will we speak the same language in a year, two years, five, ten?
When the mountains get higher and steeper,
Will we help each other climb or will we chose the easier way,, to walk away?
In the world we live, shall our love really stand?
Will we be victims of passive aggressiveness,
Will lust kill the flame that burnt initially between us?
Will more money be the trap to lure either of us out of our union..
Will the world swallow our kids up,
Despite our efforts to raise the right way?
To be forgiving when forgiveness is not a choice,
To be gracious with each other’s flaws,
To keep up conversations when simple words fail.
Days spent away from home because of work trips,
Meals not shared, unspoken silent battles
Without a manual or guide, will we really conquer it all?
I LOVE YOU, BUT I’M AFRAID
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