

I am a Judy Williams,
Brought to life from a Christian family,
My father is a renowned preacher,
My mother heads women organization of the church,
And so here I am in choir.
I was blessed with a voice,
So deep and sweet that it didn’t match noise,
Sometimes I knelt before the cross,
But still I couldn’t avoid his claws,
I just couldn’t stay a day without his bewitching smile.
And so I never missed practices every Saturday,
Because it’s then that we practiced secretly too,
I stayed behind in the practice room so we’d kiss and lick,
Those moments made me forget about myself and church,
My shadow seemed stronger than me.
Yesterday I tested positive in my womb,
My choir master disowned my unborn baby,
My parents would kill me if they knew it too,
So I passed by the chemist at midnight,
I lost my baby in that darkness.
Today I stand confessing with so much pain,
I don’t want to ruin my parents’ reputation,
I don’t want to live with the guilt,
And so I took my pills and prayers before I stood here,
So God will save and shield me from shame, pain and fear.